20. Bus Stop


Here I sit upon a bench,
Musing in retrospect
As the clock ticks by, the full moon high,
A lamppost Space erects.
My patience withers away
As I wait long for the shuttle
To taketh away beyond break of day,
Exempting all bitter rebuttals.

Every bus stopping in turn
Rejects my ticket, null and void,
But I am certain, behind closed curtain,
The world chuckles at my being toyed.
For, as it turns, it turns forth time,
Turning man to turn in turn –
Yet the faster the spin, the sharper the wind
And the hotter its friction will burn.

But I stand alone on this layer of space,
Watching infernos onward spread
As every tear escaping down laments the many crowns
That tilt ‘til they tumble from head.
I lie silently in this manner
As they meander on by, single-file,
My despair distributed amongst them,
Solemn procession stretched for miles.

Days upon days, weeks upon weeks,
Travelers stumble through bus doors.
Left out in the dark, my exclusion unbearably stark
That my very essence is abhorred.
Hither a bus rolls up without warning,
A young lady in charge at the wheel –
She beckons with kind understanding,
Her smile a thirst-quenching reel.

I rise to meet and to greet her.
She takes my ticket in hand
And shreds it with faltering gesture
Despite what had always been planned.
She scoots just a tiny bit over
So in her I’d know I’ll confide –
I sat down with her, shoulder to shoulder,
And we both took in silence the ride.


80. The Sleep-Finder


I can sleep
In a ball on a train
In a box in the rain
In a chain on the street
In a field on a sheet
On the deck of a ship
Beneath a sink with a drip
Inside a coffin underground
Within a cage in the pound
Tied to ninety-nine balloons
Amidst a flock of quacking loons
Dragged behind a bouncy boat
Strapped to the horns of an angry goat
Driven through with twenty knives
Infected with a hundred hives
Swallowed by a humpback whale
Beaten by softball-sized hail
Stretched across electric fence
While my gut gets gaping dents
As brass-knuckled blows never stop
With my mouth stuffed o’er a filthy mop
On my ass or on my head
Looking awake or stone-cold dead
I can sleep almost anywhere, you see,
Under any circumstance, inadvertently –
For the secret to passing out on a dime
Is to always be sleepy, all of the time.


161. Empty


Empty tax-free envelope
Coloring page of Jesus Christ
Pamphlet from a cancer walk
Plumb nickel
“Vogue” magazine subscription
Paper piglet mask
£100 cash, in Monopoly Land
Copy of Richard Dawkins
Half-used packet of rubbers
Newspaper clipping of clock
Dirty napkin, soiled with coffee
Another, soiled with rum
Tampon wrapped up in a bow
London Map, soggy on the left corner
Twopence.

Holy Communion might be bare,
Few souls for Eucharist –
But though St. Paul’s lacks daily fare,
Donations give much less.


17. A Day Wasted


Today I wasted
My day away.
I read a book
Of higher thought,
Watched a movie
Of social critique,
Lost a game
Of Shogi, to myself,
Sketched a sketch
For my novels,
Listened to music
Composed by Tchaikovsky,
Wrote this poem
In the coffee line –
These things I do are not a waste
Of time as I seem to say,
But might have just been better off
Postponed to a different day…
In truth, much was accomplished
And much I’ve put behind me,
But tomorrow’s test has earned my night
Since all day I neglected study.


90. A Stupid Sonnet


Verily, this sonnet be a moron
That cannot think twice upon its head
Since ev’ry bit o’ sense within it, gone!
All poetic tastes, stone dead.
Readily I degrade this sonnet
For saying nothing worthwhile in the least;
Beneath pretty wordy bonnet
Hast driven purpose simply ceased?
Truly, I wish for greater drive
Behind this pathetic cluster of lines,
So my insults are meant to force it shrive –
To confess shortcomings, accept the fines.
Yet, perhaps these failings from the start
Are due to some small failure on my part?


127. The Screenwriter’s Paycheck


Thank you for buying this here book
Of beloved poetry
Which I sold for the cheap price
Of seven dollars fifty
Because this is the kind of work
That places bread on table
Since the public’s less demanding
Than Hollywood’s unstable.
And so I thank you once again
For your patronage,
Especially since a poem’s easier
Than a screenplay ever was.


117. The Egg and Ramen Diet


Egg and Ramen every day
Be the only way to go
When you haven’t got the dough
For fancy à la Modes
Egg come morn, Ramen come night,
Has been my rule for years;
A far more addictive fast
Than it might first appear.
I tried to break this pattern
With a feast fit for a king,
But wound up chucking all my guts
And rupturing my spleen.
So egg and ramen every day
For as long as I can tell,
Since when my menu shrunk to that
My stomach shrunk as well.


136. #


# this

#that

You’re such a saint to # that!

Oh why, oh why, can’t I #?

I don’t have time to do it, see –

#standfor…Golly me!

I feel I could do so much more

Except I work from six to four

(got a family to provide for).

But how I wish I could do more!

Yet, what more can one do except #?

The pinnacle of action

The strongest of signs

Why…if you can’t find the time to #

You might as well do nothing at all.


138. Brighten


Brighton
Britain’s bleakest beach
Steeped in chilly rocky waves
Swarmed by raving gulls that
Poop and peck and plunder
Along narrow streets of mouldy shops
And unfitted quarters
Surrounding Oriental Palace
That sticks out like a cruise liner
On a flat and murky sea
The one white spot
Amidst the blues
Save the dock connecting sea to sea.
The Pavilion – an offering to history.
The Pier – an offering to frivolity
And accessible to all, escapable to all
Extending from sea to sea
Until it is worn, seas become one,
And sailors wait for summer come.


166. Glasgow


Glasgow, oh Glasgow,
What shall I say to thee?
Thy industrialized splendor
Is faded memory!
While I lurked in the Necropolis,
Taking photos of the Church,
My phone malfunctioned, and I was left
With more city left to search.
Thy smokestacks and thy mountains,
Like a Victorian Petersburg,
Will remain uncaptured, and soon forgot –
Though this fate, thou might prefer.
Thy bitter cold has left me nothing
But that drawing mental-screen
Over the stage that’s set for Glasgow –
I’ll grasp out for what I’ve seen.